Forgiven

Maybe this is the problem.

I look around for an object to draw but I am overwhelmed at the thought of representing something exactly as it is. I look at a cup and it's perfect symmetry is daunting. Because it's manufactured?

What about Nature? With Nature I feel so much more comfortable. Is it because it will forgive my mistakes and encourage my interpretations?

I like the idea that Nature forgives. I realize there is perfection in Nature too, but it is transient. It transforms itself continually. First it is perfect, then it is imperfect, in a constant dance between the two. So does it matter which I manage to represent? If I can't match it in it's perfect state, I think my imperfect effort can be forgiven.

Perhaps the way for me to approach that which is not Nature, is to treat it the way Nature would. The hard straight edges of a house abandoned and uncared for become softened and bowed when taken over by Nature. The manufactured symmetry of the cup chips and its slick finish is dulled and discolored. What could be more beautiful?

I can do this. If Nature can forgive me, so can I.